Monday, November 30, 2009

Back... sorta

As Krissy mentioned in the last post, we received some notes that the comments were broken.

I've got them fixed now, but in the rigarmarole to try and troublseshoot that the overall layout and all the funky gadgets were cleared out. We'll get those back up soon

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Just a quick note....

Hey all.  Just wanted to post a quick little note before Rainman and I head out for the day.  It's been brought to my attention that the comments are not working.  Not sure why, but for some reason the comment feature is not functioning right now.  We're trying to figure it out, and I will let you know when it's back up and running.  Until than, any comments you have can be sent to the blog's (AKA my) email address (at the top left of the page).

Hopefully we can get them back up and running soon.  And I should have a new post for you within the next few days.  See ya than!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

I am who I am, and if you don't like know where the door is!

Helllllooooooo....anybody still here?  It's been a long time, I know.  Normally  I would graze over my absence. but last time I pulled this I promised to be more open and honest.  So it's about to get real honest all up in this joint. Buckle your seat belts folks.  This may get rough.

I've been in a real rough place lately.  I suffer from depression.  It was called manic depression way back in the day when I was diagnosed, I don't know what "the kids" are calling it these days.   It's almost like my dirty little secret.  Not a whole lot of people know about it, and the ones who do usually only find out because I have to tell them.  Because they witness it first hand.  And they worry.  It's so out of character for me.  I am usually a very positive, up person.  Unless I'm having one of my "moods" as I call them.

I was first diagnosed with manic depression when I was 15.  I was living in Burlington with a boyfriend at the time.  My life was in a total mess.  I was pregnant at the time (that's another post, for another time) and unable to take any meds for it.  So my doctor taught me how to try to cope, without medication.  Honestly I wouldn't have taken anything for it.  I still don't.  I am terrified of "that type" of medication.,  I know it's rather irrational. Although after my zyban experience (Dr. Prescribed to quit smoking , had a major melt down within a week of taking it) maybe it's not so irrational.

So when I have a down spell, I tend to shut myself away from the world.  I withdraw into myself, to protect myself.  And to protect those who love me from having to see me so low.  I do what I have to do to heal myself.  I cry, I scream, I think ugly thoughts of self loathing.  I don't talk about it, because normally there is nothing to talk about.  I don't know what gets me down.  It's I guess.  Everything seems to hit me at once.  It can be days, weeks, hell even months before I'm back to normal.  Well, as normal as I get anyways. But eventually I always have a moment of self realization.  When finally something clicks in my head, and I realize things are not that bad anyways.

Recently, it's been really tough.  This last spell was, well horrible really.  And it kept getting compounded.  And every time I thought it was almost over, it got worse. Roughly two weeks ago it really came to a head.  Within the course of 24 hours, I lost both a best friend and a father figure (a dear friends father passed away.  I lived with her family when I was a teen, and ever since, her dad was my dad) .  The loss of both shook me to my core.  Death is obviously a lot worse than a fight between friends.  And yet it was the fight that brought me back from the depths of my depression.

That's right, losing a friend actually helped my depression.  Not at first.  It hurt like hell at first.  I was sad, angry, hurt, and lost all within the span of moments..  I believed every nasty, hateful thing flung my way at first.  That's not to say I am without fault.  I said some nasty things as the exchange progressed.  However for what started the damn fight in the first place, I did not deserve the shit I took.  I was made to feel like a horrible person.  And I bought into it.  For a few days (okay, the better part of a week) I felt like the biggest piece of crap on the planet.  But than I had that moment that I mentioned earlier.  I came to the realization that clearly I cannot be that horrible.  Several of my friends came to my side during this mess.  The phone calls and the facebook messages helped immensely.  To have these people, telling me that I was not the evil person I was feeling like....well it made the difference.  And I came to a conclusion.

The conclusion is this.  Not everybody is going to like me.  I have tried  my whole life to be everybody's friend.  It's just not going to happen.  And if you don't like me.....well I guess it sucks to be you.  I'm me.  Take it or leave it.  Choose leave it?  Well you know where the door is.  Anybody so willing to turn there back on me, well I guess they were never really my friends to begin with.  And I'm better off without that in my life.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Are We Going to Have Kids? Thank you, NO!

So, it's rather hard to believe, but Rainman and I are very close to celebrating our first year of marital bliss.  Yep, that's right.  A year ago this coming Sunday we got hitched.  It was awesome.  The year since?  Also awesome.  But over the course of the past year (and actually starting well before we even got engaged) we have been asked one question so many times that we are kinda sick of answering it.  The question?  "When are you guys going to have a baby?"  The answer?  NEVER!

It wouldn't be so bad if it was just left at that, but for some fucked up reason people seem to feel like they need an explanation.  "What do we mean we are not having kids?"  "Of course you're going to have kids! Don't be silly!" or my personal favorite "He'll change his mind!".  I've heard all of this and more.  So I'm setting  the record straight, right here, right now.  Hopefully this will stop some people from asking.  Or maybe this will stop you, dear reader, from saying the same stuff to your childless friends.  So here are my  reasons for not wanting kiddies.
  •  Contrary to popular belief, not all women want to have babies.  Shocking, I know.  But I personally do not want to have children.  This is not my husbands decision.  I knew full well before we got married where he stood on having children.  I accept and agree with his views.  This is the way these things are supposed to work, people.  You have these talks prior to marriage, so there is no surprises down the road,  If I did not agree with his views on this matter, I would not be married to him.  Pure and simple folks.  So I doubt "He'll change his mind" is a valid argument on why I should have children.
  • I'm not going to lie, I'm not done having fun yet.  I'm still young (ish) and I like to do what I feel like... when I feel like it.  Does that make me selfish?  No, because I don't have kids.  See how that works?  I have a job.  I go to it every day.  I get paid.  I spend my pay on necessities, and whatever is left over I spend how I want.  If we feel like going to a movie, or to visit friends we don't have to worry about things like a sitter.  The cats will be just fine, I assure you.  It's called being a childless adult, and it rules.
  • I do not have the temperament to be a mother.  I know some of you will disagree.   Sorry, but I don't.  I do not have the patience to deal with a child all the time.  Most people don't.  At least I admit it to myself.
  • Frankly the way the world is today, I would not even consider having a baby.  No place is safe any more.  Parents have to be scared to send the kids to school.  Not the kind of world I want to raise a child in
Sorry if you don't care for my reasons, but they are what they are.  We are childless.  It is our choice.  Now stop asking for explanations.  I mean honestly, if I asked any parent why they chose to bred, they would probably be pretty offended.  But next time somebody questions me on this topic, that's exactly what I'll be doing.  You've been warned

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Random amusing stuff that has kept me from blogging.....

Yeah that's right.  I'm blaming other stuff on my lack of posts this week.  It's totally not my fault!  Okay, maybe a little.  I'm a bit burned out right now.  Honestly I really have no will (or ability) lately to communicate.  Call it what you will, but I have had absolutely no patience for anything.  Facebook, my forums, Twitter, this blog have all just been a little too much for me to deal with.  No worries though.  I go into this withdraw mode ever now and again, and usually come back from it with a vengeance.  And I'm on holiday next week.  Meaning plenty of time for blogging goodness!

So while I've been avoiding communication with most of the world I have found some pretty awesome stuff to amuse myself with. A couple of fantastic fucking movies, and some websites that have made me laugh till I damn near cried.  And being the nice awesome person I am, I'm gonna share with all of you.

First up, Texts From Last Night Okay we've all done dumb ass stuff when dunk and/or stoned.  Chances are good you drunk dialed, or sent a text message to somebody.  That's what this site is.  Text messages about drunken nights out and the aftermath.  Many posts of people trying to figure out just what the hell they did the night before. Funny shit.

Next we have a series of sites.  Ever seen a friends status on Facebook and thought "WTF" or "Way to much info!!!"? Than these are the sites for you. STFU MarriedsSTFU Believers and STFU Parents. Laugh till you cry at the amounts of over sharing people do.  Than start to worry if any of your posts are up there, or will be.  I know I did!

Next to the movies I've seen.  These are two vastly different films.  I doubt many of you have seen either of them yet.  They both were awesome for very different reasons.

First we watched "Speed Racer" on The Movie Network.  Okay, you can stop groaning now.  I thought it would be utter shit.  I mean I used to watch (and love BTW) the anime series this was based from.  But a whole 2 hour movie...come the fuck on!  So while I was at work one day, Rainman threw it on.  Apparently it seemed like a good time killer.  Within 20 minutes he sent me a text message.  He had stopped it, because I HAD to see this movies.  I'm glad he waited.  I was completely enthralled, and actually wanted to watch it again right after it finished.  Even if you have never seen an episode of "Speed Racer" I honestly think you should check it out.  It's pretty close to  perfection put to film.

Okay, that not quite your pace?  Like a good scare?  Than you must, and I do mean MUST see "Paranormal Activity" .  Rainman and I had been following this movie for a while, waiting for it to come to a theater near us.  It finally did last weekend, and we went to the Saturday midnight showing.  Holy Fuck.  I have never been so scared during a movie in my life.  No real blood and gore.  Just a movie that works it's way into your head.  And sits there.  And continues to scare you almost a week later.  Yeah it's that fucking good.  It should be going into wide release soon.  Check this one out while it's in theater if you can to get the full experience.

Well there.  That should keep you guys busy for a while.  I'm working my last shift before vacation tonight, so with any luck I should be back to "normal" (okay, normal for me)  by the end of the weekend.

Till than boys and girls, have fun!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

The Ultimate Metal Song List-Part Duex

Welcome back everyone!  Miss me?  What do you mean no???  Moving right along, did you check out all the music I posted last time  ? Go ahead and check it out now, I'll wait.



Okay, we back?  So now that your all caught up, and you know the drill let's continue, shall we?  Just a few quick notes before we do. First, All links are now included in the song name, so just click there for all the video goodness. And next a warning, things are going to start to get real offensive with this portion.  If anything I posted in the last list offended you....well lets just say you should skip this post.  Because we start tonights list off at number 11, with....

11. Get Naked Method of Mayhem .  This is a Tommy Lee project.  Need I say anymore?  I do?  Okay the songs called "Get Naked".  You know understand the warning a whole lot better now, don't you?  This is dirty, and raunchy, and a whole lot of fun.  And if you find yourself singing it all day, you can blame it on me.  This time.

12. I Fucking Hate You - Godsmack.  Last post there was another Godsmack song at number 2.  Remember how I said that one made a shit day better?  Same applies here.  It helps to get the anger out, I swear.

13. Easy  - Faith No More.  No, that's not a typo.  No I don't mean Lionel Richie.  Faith No More did an awesome cover of it.  I would almost say it's ......epic (Google it if you don't get the reference.  Than feel free to send your hatemail for my terrible joke)

14. Through The Fire and The Flames - Dragonforce.  We first heard this song on one of the "Guitar Hero" games (I'm sure Rainman will know which one) and loved it, even though there is no way in hell I can play it, even on easy.  Do yourself a favor and actually watch this video, just to see these guys playing.  It's mind blowing.

15. Down With The Sickness -Disturbed.  I. Fucking. Love. This. Song. End of story really.  I just love this song.  Although this is an edited version of the song, with all the good stuff from the middle pulled out.  Fans will know what I mean.

16  Dr. Greentumb - Cypress Hill.  *cough*  Yeah, I like Cypress Hill. A lot. As you'll see.  

17. Rap Superstar - Cypress Hill . Goes hand and hand with 
18. Rock Superstar - Cypress Hill .  Both these songs are just awesome.  And not what you may think of when you hear the words "Cypress Hill"

19. Insane in the Brain - Cypress Hill.  This is what you think of when you hear the words "Cypress Hill".  I know.  Me too.

I' ll leave you tonight on that old school note.  I'll be back with the third, and final installment by the weekend.  Till then happy listening!

Monday, October 5, 2009

The best play list ever? I thinks so! Part One

So if you were paying attention to the twitter feed while reading Rainman's last post, you'll have read about how I created, what I think may well be the best metal (okay not all metal, but run with it people)play list in the world.  Seriously.  I created it on the fly when on the bus ride home from Brampton, and it was just perfect.  So freaking perfect I have to share it, and all it's awesomeness.

Consider this a disclaimer:  if you do not like metal music, you ain't going to like this.  Just walk away now.  Seriously. Do us both the favor.  Also some most  pretty much all of this music contains profanity.  If you do not like profanity in your music...well this is most likely the wrong blog all together for you.  I suggest you run screaming for the hills now.  Where I can I will be including video of each song.  If I can't find a video I'll include the lyrics. Cause I'm a huge music nerd that way.

Without any further adieu, I present to you, my awesome metal play list (in no particular order)

1. Man in the Box- Alice In Chains Video Here .Yes this is a throw back to my much younger years.  Pretty much everything here will be. Deal with it.  But they all still sound fucking fantastic.

2. Whatever - Godsmack Video Here .  My dear friend Shels (check out her blog here )introduced me to this song years ago, and I still love the shit out of it.  It is my ultimate "pissed off and had a bad day song".  It just makes me feel better.  Yes, I know I'm strange.

3. Vermillion - Slipknot.  video here  This may well be my favorite Slipknot song.  Well this or...

4. Vermillion part 2 - Slipknot. video here drastically different than part one.  This one is almost haunting, and beautiful.  Yes, I said Slipknot and beautiful in the same paragraph.  And I mean it.

5. Pulse of the Maggots - Slipknot  yep, video time  Much more what you what expect from Slipknot.  This was the song that turned me onto this band.  I've always had a slightly anti-authority attitude, and even all grown up I love any song about rising up against "the man".

6. Ladies and Gentlemen - Saliva more video I have loved this song since the first time I heard it.  Ask Rainman, he'll tell ya.  It just kinda pumps me up.  I guess you could say it''s the Krissy party song.  I love this song so much that were planning on using it for the entrance to our wedding reception.

7. Du Hast- Rammstein take a guess This is another huge party song for me.  Nuff said

8. Renegades of Funk - Rage Against The Machine. if you guessed video.... I love this song so much that it's the alarm tone on my cell.  If I have to get my ass out of bed, it might as well be to something worth listening to.

9. Killing In The Name Of - Rage Against The Machine you would be right Remember the Anti-Authority attitude I spoke of earlier?  Pretty sure this song is what sparked it when I was a teenager.  Ah, memories.

10. Dae Pechniae - Pain of Salvation Trust me! This one I owe all to Rainman.  He introduced me to this band when we first started dating.  It was love at first listen.  While most of there material is rather heavy in tone, this song is

I think that's enough for now.  Check out those video's and I'll be back with Part 2 before ya know it.

Friday, October 2, 2009

7 Ways to List 5 Reasons Why you should know How to Make a post about the One Thing You Didn't Know About... Dobernerds

So The Krissy, as you all know, is now a twittering machine.

What do you mean you didn't know? Did you not get the memo?

Ah dammit. Alright... look over there on your right.

No, your other right... there you go.

In any event, between the blogging, and following blogs, and the mad twittering, she happened to come across a little gem hereto forth known as *Loud, booming, echoing voice* Tremendous News. And whoa Nelly is this one ever a doozy. Great little humour centric blog seemingly dedicated to the twitter revolution and all that may encompass. There are a number of other posts up there with different subjects, but mostly it boils down to Twitter and social net culture.

Mixed within the humour is some very thoughtful and important work as well.

There's highly important public service messages:
The 5 Trademarks of a Douchebag.

Moral guidance:
The 10 Commandments of Facebook

Sage advice to the more mature who are seeking love:
5 Ways Cougars Can Use Twitter to Find Prey

Brilliant investigations into the secrets of the core demographic for every marketer in the world today
OMG You Guys! The Best Twitter Search Ever!

And of course the source from where I shamelessly stole the entire makeup of the title to this post:
7 Easy Ways to Sell Out as a Blogger

See? I told you folks this was important stuff. Now, after reading through you may have noticed a certain term sprouting up many a time, which brings me to the following line of commentary.

Moobs. Yes, Moobs. Man Boobs. Quite the clever little condensing of the two words to get the point across. The one thing is though, Moobs almost sounds like a friendly pet name of familiarity one would use when addressing Mooby the Golden Calf... who we all know was the source of rampant idolatry in Dogma, that film of great truth and spirituality bestowed upon the masses by the prophet Kevin Smith (Haaall-e-lu-jah).

Now, out of fear that any continued use of the term Moobs may be misconstrued as my worship of said false idol, bringing down the wrath of Matt Damon and Ben Affleck upon me, I must find another term which truly gets the same image across, without any sacrilegious undertones.

I propose "MANNARIES". That's right, like mammaries, but as a busty protrusion from the chest of a man. It paints an equally clear picture, has the bonus of sounding like a legitimate medical term, and you don't have to fear the wrath of Jason Bourne and Daredevil with angel wings and cynicism. It really is a win-win situation I feel.

So for now I'll leave you all to the perusal of Tremendous News, but before I go just yet... let me know what you think in the comments. Moobs or Mannaries? Let the great debate of the moment commence!

Oh... and if you had to click on Dogma up there to find out what I was referring to... for shame! Give me 20 "Hail Mewse's" to atone and seek out your true enlightenment.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

An open letter to Vince Mcmahon and the WWE

Dear Vince and Co,

Let me start by saying I have been a huge fan of your brand of  "sports entertainment" since I was a child.  Some of my best childhood memories are of watching your superstars preform on my TV every Saturday.  I bought your magazine every month, and papered my walls with posters of my favorites (Macho Man Randy savage, The Ultimate Warrior, The Undertaker, Hulk Hogan and Miss Elizabeth in case your wondering)  I made my mom drive to the video store every time a PPV came out on video so I could rent/buy it.  I didn't care if I knew the results, I wanted to see it for myself.  As an adult now i have been to see Wrestlemania and Raw live.  I've bought T-Shirts, and DVD's.  I purchased your PPV's every month.  Even when I didn't care for the card, I still bought them. Hell, I've even met people who had stopped watching your fine programing and brought them back into it.  I've spent more than my fair share of money, and I've never once complained...until now.

You see Vince, there is a limit to what I (and most fans) will put up with.  I stuck by when your programming...well kinda sucked to be honest.  And while we're being honest over the past year or so your stuff has really been at an all time low.  But I've tried to be understanding.  I've watched as people with real talent have been put on a back burner, so you can push somebody who does not have an ounce of talent or personality.  I've watched as you have desecrated my great memories of ECW  by turning the name into a joke with what you call "extreme".  I've watched you strip the "attitude" that you used to be so proud to flaunt out of your shows.  I watched as you have stopped showing blood and instead cut to a crowd shot, or in old footage turned it all black and white when once I would have seen a glorious crimson mask.  Basically I have watched as you have pushed your prime demographic, your fans, the people who made your fucking company a success to the side for a new "family friendly" image (And BTW who the fuck do you think your kidding with that one).  And after all that, I have finally reached what is my personal limit.

You taken a "Superstar" who was a great role model to the kiddies and turned him into a heel and a joke.  I'm referring of course to CM Punk.  The self proclaimed "straight edge superstar".  A man that does not smoke, drink, or do drugs.  Who's only vice is competition.  You put him up against a man who was a huge fan favorite.  A man you knew all the little kiddies would cheer for.  Oh and a man who has had numerous drug problems.  Yep, you put him in a program against Jeff Hardy.  And the fans boo CM Punk.

While this pissed me off when it was happening, I still kinda understood.  I stopped watching for a whlie however. Than a few weeks ago I saw a headline. Jeff Hardy Arrested- .  Yep the man you made into a hero, a man who proudly claimed did not need rehab to get over his addictions.  Arrested for drugs.  What. The. Fuck.  It's been no secret for years Jeff Hardy has had his demons.  We have all watched him struggle with them.  Hell it's the reason I was so pissed over the CM Punk/Hardy feud in the first place.  But to have him arrested like this a few weeks after leaving the WWE (and ending the CM Punk feud when he left...yeah it ran right till Hardy's last show)....well it kinda proves my point for me.

If your going to claim to be a "family friendly" show than perhaps you should take a good look at who your pushing.  I'm not taking anything away from Jeff Hardy here.  He has given a lot to the business in his years with you, and never failed to take my breath away with what he can do in the ring.  I don't doubt that he is in physical pain every day.  But pain does not explain away cocaine.  But if you had not used Hardy as your man to turn Punk into a heel I most likely would still not be complaining.  I mean I get that you could not (technically) have seen this coming.  But really, you should have.  You had a ready made anti drug hero, and the fans booed him for a man you knew had drug problems.  Whether you knew he still had a problem or not his past history speaks for itself.  That makes me sick honestly.  I'm sure by now you know it was a mistake...or maybe not as I see your now running Punk in a program against The Undertaker.  Good call Vince.  Make him into more of a heel.  Put him up against a huge fan (myself included) favorite.  Put him up against a man who's time in this business is running out.  Way to look at the future of your business.

I think it's safe to say I'm done Vince.  I'm done with your programming.  I'm done with the WWE.  I'll stick to watching your competition.  I'll watch TNA, where they don't try to be something they are not, and the talent speaks for itself.  So bye Vince.  I would like to say it's been fun, but given the last few years I would be lying.

The internet, home to the misunderstanding. (Or can't we all just get along??)

I had originally planned to finish another post up tonight, one I`ve had in draft for well over a week.  Well either that or start a new one about some movies I`ve watched recently, and other various shit (including a great story about how I almost chocked to death on a doughnut.  Don`t worry that`s still a-coming.  A story like that is to good not to share)  But than the Internet happened, drama ensued and I must vent.  And you, you lucky readers get to read my vent.  Or not...whatever.  I mean you could just click away, but why would you do that, when I`m awesome?

Now clearly I love the Internet.  Hell I'm on it right now.  What I don't like is how easy it is for something to be misconstrued.  When you can't see somebody, or hear their voice,  you lose an important part of communication. You miss the subtle things that can totally change the meaning of the actual words.

See? No expression!

Forums sadly seem to be where most of these problems come from.  As some of you may know I'm involved in a few forums.  I've left a few too, but I'll get to that another time.  When Rainman and I we're planning our wedding I spent a lot of time on a bridal forum. (which  had some issues, I blogged about that here )  Even before we said our "I do's" I had moved onto the "sister" wives board.  And I love it there.  Normally there is very little drama, and we all get along pretty well (strange for a bunch of women I know).  But not today.

I don't want to go into a ton of detail, but recently one of our tight knit little community has suffered some personal tragedy.  We all hurt for her. Emotion has been running high.  It's funny how strangers on the other end of a keyboard become like friends.  I never would have thought it possible.  But these women are my friends.  We share our joys and our pains.  And we protect each other fiercely.  Normally this is a good thing. Not when we turn on each other, which is what happened today..

Somebody made a comment that was taken wrong.  It was taken as light, and flippant. It was meant to be a message of hope.  I got that.  Others did not.  So they went on the attack.  I have actually had the pleasure of meeting (in the real world)the person who posted the comment that started all this crap.  She is a wonderful, fun and kind person.  I have no doubt in my mind as to the intent behind her comment., and it sure as fuck was not to start drama.

Sadly after the attack she has felt the need to leave our forum. I don't blame her.  Not in the least.  Frankly if it was me, I would have done the same.  With a lot less class than this lady showed.  And this has opened a whole can of worms that may see us lose more members.  Women who joined after me, new wives who have just joined us.  People who now feel they have to watch what they say for fear of being ripped a new one for having a opinion that may differ from the majority.  It's really kinda pathetic.  As a matter of fact, I'm kinda concerned about even writing this post, as some of them may wander over here and read it.  But fuck it. I'm hurt, and angry.  For a person who's opinion I respect, and who's posts frequently make me laugh my ass off.  For the women who now are thinking of leaving.  For our community as a whole.

This whole thing could have been dealt with privately.   The poster did not need to berated in a public forum because some did not agree with her thoughts.  That's why the forum gods created private messaging people.  In all the furor to protect one person's feelings (who has not seen the post in question as of this entry) they way other people feel was forgotten, or just plain ignored.  I get that it's a sensitive issue.  I understand that we are all upset for a valued member of our community.  But I'm sorry, the person who has now left was also a valued member.  I thought we all were.  I thought that was kinda the point of the board in the first place.  Maybe I was wrong.  And if I was, maybe it's time I also think about moving on.
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